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 HI everyone ...I have to say ,unfortunatly i am in need of some serious dental work , I have low self esteem due to the fact when i engage in conversation or go on job interviews i feel it is a factor ,because I cant seem to get a job ,I know I am a good person and am very reliable ....but when you deal in customer service jobs ...you have to appeal to the public ,shallow i know but that is the realilty . You hope that people will over look it but they dont .I know its un attractive and has held me back from even getting married because I don' t and wont even take pictures ...out of fear of what my smile portrays .(ugly teeth...really big ugly crooked ) 

    The aid page has givin me hope , like I've never had before and it keeps me going maybe that someday ,I will be able to smile and like what i see and what others see.Reading success stories gives  me hope and if thats all i have its better than no hope . I need to get out of a situation so I can become independant and have respect for my self ,so in turn others will respect me ....I can hope and have faith that maybe someday I will be happy with what i see in the mirror ...HERES TO HOPE AND FAITH IT KEEPS ME GOING   I NEED AN ANGEL TO ANSWER MY PRAYERS .

Hi my name is Joanna and I have struggled all my life ,it seems lilke i cant seem to get over the barrier that keeps holding me back from happiness , and i think that barrier is me but also my self esteem and lack of seeing a dentist regularly as a child and also having fear of them contributed also . as a baby I was born premature and only weighed 1.5 ;lbs 6 oz. ...but have no record and every one swears to it ...in 1962 it shioud have been front page news ....would like help retreiving that  i think that might help me ...be cause not ever seeing your hospital birth cert, with weight ,foot print and height ,is kinda bothering me but ,not enough to ruin you r life ....i was a flamenco dancer for a good 10 years as a young girl up to the age of 18 and a good one at that .born the youngest of seven children ,hispanic,catholic middle class family. the only one not to graduate in my family from high school and with good reason so i felt ,I dont think any one could of handled my situation any better ..l...I could of simply just killed my self and believe me i thought about it ...for about 5 min and said i cam go on no one will ever brake me .... Ill show them.... them being my mom and boyfriend ...whom she is now married to ,divorced my dad after 33 years just to be with him ,and the worse part is i wasted 2 years of my life just to please her my mom by staying with this guy ,so she could be with him...and if you want to no the truth i didnt really even klike him very much ,my mom let him sleepm in bed with me with out my dad knowing just so she could hang on to him....it was also my first encounter with physical abuse by a man .....and also the first time i got pregnant and my mom made me have an abortion so my dad wouldnt find out so guess what he did .....so my mom marrys him in jail , divorces my dad ....my dad gets into a car accident with severe brain damage in a coma for 30 days ,out of 7 kids i qwuit my job to sit by his bed side and talk and read to him ,no one else , and still i did it because i lioved him this was around 1984,my dad didnt live at home  and istayed with a friend ,,,my mom swore my dad was crazy for making his accuzations ,not to believe him ......yah ok ...she marrys him in jail ....cute...ahaha,she was a cougar before it was cool...lol........i just want to find happiness ,I am almost 50 years old and have never been married ,want to but afraid to take pictures , my dream to find a good hearted man ,and spend what ever time i have left able to smile and look at myself and be happy ... i know i have a self esteem problem but if i could get my teeth fixed that would be something to make me feel better and also be able to gain employment .. if any one has an answer or advice let me know ,,,,i would like to start with my dental work , mental state then life coach   ♥ ,,,,thank you ....may peace be with you ,and good luck everyone  ,joanna

First off ,a little background. I am male 48 years old and unemployed. My wife is disabled and draws SSI.That is our only income. I have been looking for work for quite awhile,but i have a serious problem that causes a lot of difficulty and it has been eating away at me and i have to be honest and at that same time,sort of get it all off my chest.(I have never spilled my guts to anyone anywhere ,that doesnt allready know my situation anyway i mean, not to this extent before) ..so as embarrassing and humiliating as it is..here goes.... I have had the luck to be very hirable ...well..in the past anyway..I dont know if its been looking for something better,.something different..or what ,but i have held MANY jobs before in my area..too many probably..and well,quite frankly,like an idiot Ive quit very many of them.Lots without notice.I have screwed myself up so badly to the point of making it to where no place of employment..or..at least most places..around my area would probably hire me...God,if i had it all to do over again,i'd do things so much differently. As i've said..this eats away at me constantly. I have worked different jobs for quite awhile..one of the last ones my i'd been with for awhile..(6 or 7 years actually) the buisness closed down,and since..well..ive had a hard time with other jobs since then.Finally i managed to get on a year or so ago at a restaurant that ive worked at actually several times over the years..(different times since 1987) and swore id NEVER ever be unemployed again..then the unthinkable and unexpected happend..at the time,my wife and i were having marital problems. I got involved with someone..as ashamed as i am to say this..i had an afffair which led to my wife and i seperating...well..things didnt work out with this woman.and my wife has forgiven me...God bless her...and she and I have since reconciled..better than ever and deeper in love than ever before..NEVER will i ever let anything like this happen again..as i am a very content and happy man now..well.except for the unemployement issue...see, at that time...i didnt think i could live in this town after what happened...Couldnt imagine running into this other woman after things that happened..so..again..like an idiot,I quit my job ..I just left..no notice....and we relocated to a nearby city in a nearby state.(i have a brother and a couple friends who live there.altho they helped us get there and tried helping us some..they have their lives and families and couldnt really help us with our situation..).this was last year in March..I looked for work..couldnt find anything..even tho it was a bigger city..couldnt find anywhere that was doing much hiring at that time..well my kids and grandkids live here (Kentucky) so we came back a couple months later...and have been here since then mostly struggling..well..work has been hard to find..i messed myself up so badly.in the past.that there are many places i cant go..or have allready worked that probably wouldnt hire me back..i get so afraid that my last job was just that...my LAST job...and i blew it...i feel utterly worthless and like such a low-life these days. Talk about low self esteem..i got it!..but i keep hoping i can land a job and redeem myself..ive vowed that like i was doing with my job that closed down that i would NEVER give up another job if i were lucky enough to land one.I am older.not getting any younger so jobs would be even harder to find as i get EVEN older..and i need stability in my life.no matter what the job..but.it seems so hopeless..and.i am so afraid i am too late. I honestly am not a lazy man..I love working and i have worked most of my life and plan to keep on looking..doing what it takes to make up for all i have done..I suppose like a drug.(which i do NOT do and has never been an issue with my family life or employement).i was addicted to just ..i dont know..job hoppping?..if that word makes sense..i know others who have done that..but not to the extent I did.I have family who have worked 1 job for years..why cant i be like that?.sometimes i have wondered if something were wrong with me...but ive searched my heart lately and i feel ive made very bad mistakes in life but that ive learned my lesson a very hard way indeed...I know i must stay put with the next job i get.make it a career for that matter.IF..i do get one that is Anyway.the purpose of this..joining this site,posting this..and all..well id ask for work,altho unless its in my area it wouldnt help.I dont want a handout..altho if some type of grant.or something were available.See one problem is if i get back and forth..i usually have to catch rides..i cant afford a car and well..embarrassing as it is.do not have a liscence..( but i will say this..ive walked ..sometimes long distances...through rain ,snow,storms ,hail etc to get back and forth to jobs when i did have one) so certain driving jobs or ones where i have to work out of city or state ..unless i relocated..would be out..its very limiting....and depresssing..another problem is my education .i have only a 9th grade education.,but I do want to further my education.if only i could focus on it without the fianancial situation i have. See my wife draws disability,only a little over 600 a month and it isnt enough for us to live on..i mean my kids are on their own.but still i need to take care of her..we make the rent and all ok, but there are still so many bills that we cant cover..and winter (heating bills) ...was a real pain..and its been hard to recover..we cant move in with our kids..I'd hate doing that anyway,but my son..for example lives in public housing with his wofe and my grandson and no one can stay with them..plus..he is unemployed and having problems of his own as well..hes looking and doesnt have my problems tho so i keep hoping he will have something soon...(yes i know with a newborn baby,he shouldve had something before now ,but for the longest time ,almost NOWHERE around here has been hiring..at all!)..My daughter and her husband both work in the same place,but,with 3 kids its rather crowded and we've tried it before and it just doesnt work out so well. Anyway i hope not to have to move in with anyone..i plan to keep my job hunting and one way or another..as ive said ive been very hirable in the past and hope i will again..all i hope for from this site..as far as any financial assistance is maybe something to get us on our feet til i hopefully do land something?..Something bothering me so much..is..ok..my oldest grandaughter was 4 years old this month..and we couldnt get her anything altho we plan to get her something..maybe not much,but when my wife gets her check..but NEXT month..is also my sons bday..(the 6th..22 YRS yrs old) daughters (the 13th..23 yrs old) youngerst grandaughers (the 20th 3 years old) and my oldest grandson( 21st 2 yrs old) as well as my own..altho that doesnt matter,but id give ANYTHING to get my babies something nice as possible for them as well as my kids themselves.its breaking my heart to think we cant do it and i kept praying id get a job before now..but..well..no luck. I feel so bad and feel that my sins and my indecent actions of the past have have in some way cursed me.caused all this...the dark cloud over my head that i feel isnt going to go away..at least anytime soon..still as ashamed as i am..i will be optomistic and will prove myself worthy of redemption..to my family..to a future ( hopefully anyway) employer..and even to myself! And tho this is the part that brings some shame..i guess what id ask from this site..as far as help from some giving caring..and as far as my past mistakes go.forgiving person...is maybe some kind of relief..help of some kind til i can get on my feet..(and i will..thats a promise..to myself as well as anyone else thats concerned.)..or..more importantly..well.if only it could be in my area..a job..some kind of work..if not to far..id even relocate somehow..as long as i can get to my job somehow.( bus?..walking distance..etc.).i would prefer that..if possible..if not..any and all help..would be appreciated..either way...to whoever reads this..thank you for your time. Jeff Poore P.O.Box 493 Middlesboro Ky 40965 606 242 7414 (temporary phone and internet anyway..as the phone..and/or internet will possibly be disconnected if nothing comes through soon,altho the intenet wont matter(Id use my local library if need be..great place btw)..just cheap dial up anyway,the phone is very important.

I have been in need of dental work since my teenage years. I've never been able to afford dental insurance. I am 47 years old now and it has gotten to point that I shut myself off from the world anyway that I can. I dont socialize and I get jobs where I don't have to deal with people. My self esteem is so bad. People judge you by your personality and they don't know mine because I keep it hidden. I don't smile,but if I have to I cover my mouth or hold my head down. Perfect strangers pass by me and make comments like, why don't you smile everythings gonna be already,all that does is make me feel worse. I was a very outspoken person and now I let people run over me just to keep from speaking to them face to face. I want to get my life back. I'm holding myself back financially and physically. Please help me get my life back.

Feeling lost !! Lost my father a year ago and feel as if I have lost a part of myself. Short tempered, critical, negative thinking etc etc. Just not happy about myself and have low self esteem. I care too much, and am easily hurt by the words of others. Want people to like me, but don't like myself, so how can anyone like me. Insecure about everything. Am also falling out with certain people in my life. Most of them are people that probably aren't good friends  anyway.

 I just feel that everything is chaos in my life at the moment. Want to find balance, happiness and inner peace. Want to like myself again. Don't want to worry so much about things, and what people think of me. I would really like it if I could just NOT care so much sometimes.